This past holiday season, my Facebook and Instagram feeds were chalk full of engagements and proposals...most of people who were my age if not YOUNGER. It was a very weird realization for me. I am 25 years old, I have no desire to be married any time soon, but all of a sudden I had marriage FOMO.
I still have so much I want to do before I have to worry about co-existing with someone and procreating so why did I feel this way? Beats me. Sure, the diamond rings and sneakily captured photos are adorable and amazing, but I need to create a relationship with my savings account before making that next step. I came across this article that scared me to death but also comforted me that I am not the only person in their mid-20s just floating along trying to figure it out. Give it a read, it made me chuckle....and cry a little (RIP headbands). Mondays after a long weekend can be pretty brutal. Trying to catch up with stuff that has piled up is exhausting. I am counting down the minutes until I get home and am able to wind down. My brain is at 10000 mph and its time to take a breather. only 2 and 1/2 more days until another magical long weekend ...
My heart is heavy today. 10 months ago we lost the most special person with the brightest personality.
Happy Birthday Unki Bruce. I am sure you are up in heaven holding court and making everyone laugh. I miss you more than I can say. I am a 25 year old child.
Ever since I discovered that Santa was only a mythical legend (heartbreaking) at a very late age (6th grade, thanks for letting me look stupid to my friends MOM) I have been sneaking around looking for my presents around my house. My parents had the typical hiding places, the spare room closet, the trunks of their cars, under their bed, etc. and I always managed to find a few minutes when they were not around to sneak a peak. I'm the worst. One year, I even found the notebook my mom kept to keep track of what she was buying my brothers and I. She left it on the table and I checked it almost daily. It was like my heroin at the age of 13, I couldn't quit it. There were no surprises that Christmas. As the years have gone on, I still do this. Isn't that the terrible? I have absolutely no patience to wait until December 25th. My new sneakers that I wanted came in a package at the mail the other day and I opened it just to "make sure they fit". My mom was not happy. The thing is I love surprises, when I don't know they are coming. But knowing that all of these goodies are just under my mom's bed KILLS ME. I have gotten a little more patient as the years have gone on but it's still pretty bad. I also can't wait to tell people what I got THEM for Christmas. I got my mom this wicker chair she has been wanting since friggin 'Nam and the fact that I haven't told her yet is a miracle. I am only certain of a few presents that I am getting this year and I will admit that it is a little refreshing to not know what's in the boxes on Christmas morning...maybe next year I won't peak at all?....doubtful. My best friend is heading home from Chicago tonight! She and her boyfriend are leaving tonight and driving straight through. Words can't describe how excited me and my other girlfriends are to have her home. She's kind of the ring leader in our little circus. Since she graduated, she has lived in Alabama (where she attended college for her last few semesters), Atlanta, Florida, Texas, and now Chicago. She only gets to come home about 2 times a year and when she does you better believe everything else stops and we get as much Noelle time as possible. We have a Secret Santa tradition that we will be having this Monday, which also happens to be Noelle's 26th birthday. Finally the 5 of us will be reunited again. To say I am excited is the biggest understatement of the year.
just a little throwback of me being happy AF Three things I am happy/grateful for today are...
1. The Warm Weather: As much as I love Christmas time and when there is a chill in the air, it has been so warm and I am grateful for it because my mom and I are going shopping tonight at the Wrenthem Outlets, which is outside. I'm happy we won't freeze our butts off walking store to store. 2. How good the Dunkin Donuts employees made my coffee today.. 3. How nicely my office is decorated for Christmas...makes the work day a little better. A meaningful thing that happened to me in the last 24 hours is... Hanging out with my best friend and her nephew Christian last night. Baby Christian was a preemie baby and was born 4 months early. He is such a miracle and I love spending time with him any chance I can get! xo Kelsie I am such a wanna be yogi its not even funny. I even have a pinterest board dedicated to yoga poses, aromatherapy, and articles on how to stop negative thoughts and create positive ones. One of the biggest issues with my wanna be hobby is that I am literally the most inflexible person ever. I can't touch my toes, I can't do a cart wheel, and I can't do a back bend. It's so frustrating but I am determined to straighten my spine and become more at peace with myself. I came across this post through pinterest that has a list of 15 hip opener positions to help release negative emotions. While some of them scare me and my inflexible muscles I feel like some are doable for me. My goal is to complete as many of these poses each day until Christmas Eve. The winter blues are beginning to kick in so why not be experimental, amiright?? In addition, I am also going to be taking on the 30 Day Happiness Challenge. Today is Day 1, so today I am thankful for 1. My mom, she always listens to me when I need someone to vent to. 2. My new glasses! I can finally see things without squinting and 3. Colbie Caillat Holiday Christmas Pandora station, it's getting me through this gloomy Monday.
xo Kelsie |
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