"Talking about our problems is our greatest addiction. BREAK THE HABIT. Talk about your Joys."
- Rita Schiano
- Rita Schiano
With the upcoming holidays coming up, it has been hard for me to get excited for my usual favorite time of the year. In the last two years my parents separated and my dad moved out, my brother was diagnosed with testicular cancer, and within 10 days I lost my Uncle/God-Father to leukemia and my grandmother to Alzheimer's. Plus all of the normal 25 year old's problems (i.e. feeling like I'm stuck in my job, all of my friends are getting houses and husbands and babies, its impossible to save money, etc) To say the least, I have been in a major funk.
I am normally a very upbeat, energetic, and happy girl. I love interaction with people and most of the people in my life would say I am the life of the party. All wonderful things to be said about a person. But since all of these events have been occurring, I have found myself changing. My mood, attitude, and outlook on everything had shifted into a very dark place and I became anxious ALL OF THE TIME. So much that it started to interfere with my relationships with people, especially my boyfriend.
I finally consulted with my doctor and she put me on some anxiety medication (something I never ever wanted to resort to) and she also prescribed me a low dose of xanex to be taken as needed. These prescriptions were very helpful and while I use them as needed I try very hard to not become dependent on them for serenity or happiness.
Everyday is different. Some days I wake up and immediately want to shut my eyes and stay in bed for the rest of my life. Other's I am all "carpe diem" and sunshine and rainbows. It's something I am still coping with and adjusting to.
The one thing I have learned from all of this is that no matter how strong of a support system you have, or what medications you are prescribed, or what TERRIBLE things happen to you, you need to find your own joy.
Mine is a glass of wine while watching Grey's Anatomy with the "Leaves" Bath and Body candle burning. Mine is my friends. Mine is watching old movies with my mom. Mine is playing trivia with my dad. Mine is going for mystery day trips with my boyfriend. It's the little things that help you get through it. Because it's true what they say, the little things are actually the big things.
xo
Kelsie
I am normally a very upbeat, energetic, and happy girl. I love interaction with people and most of the people in my life would say I am the life of the party. All wonderful things to be said about a person. But since all of these events have been occurring, I have found myself changing. My mood, attitude, and outlook on everything had shifted into a very dark place and I became anxious ALL OF THE TIME. So much that it started to interfere with my relationships with people, especially my boyfriend.
I finally consulted with my doctor and she put me on some anxiety medication (something I never ever wanted to resort to) and she also prescribed me a low dose of xanex to be taken as needed. These prescriptions were very helpful and while I use them as needed I try very hard to not become dependent on them for serenity or happiness.
Everyday is different. Some days I wake up and immediately want to shut my eyes and stay in bed for the rest of my life. Other's I am all "carpe diem" and sunshine and rainbows. It's something I am still coping with and adjusting to.
The one thing I have learned from all of this is that no matter how strong of a support system you have, or what medications you are prescribed, or what TERRIBLE things happen to you, you need to find your own joy.
Mine is a glass of wine while watching Grey's Anatomy with the "Leaves" Bath and Body candle burning. Mine is my friends. Mine is watching old movies with my mom. Mine is playing trivia with my dad. Mine is going for mystery day trips with my boyfriend. It's the little things that help you get through it. Because it's true what they say, the little things are actually the big things.
xo
Kelsie